I never want to settle and be satisfied. I always want to be better in some way.
My comeback now is a lot about that. Keep on pushing my leg further and harder, make it work at least as good as before. Sometimes when you don’t feel any difference and just being home and alone it sucks. But when meeting friends and being out in the real life you understand what to push for and that the efforts you make are making a difference.
Being able to lift your foot. Being able to sit on a chair with 90° bent leg. Being able to change from two to one crutch. Being able to walk without crutches. Being able to get dressed without tools to help you. Being able to get on my Colnago and spin a bit on the trainer. Being able to go out, step on your daily, get that leg in and pedal away (happened yesterday). Being able to measure progress and see when angles like 95, 115 and 125 is every day getting closer to 143°.
This day was about progress too. Talking about the future and seeing the future from Specialized (2018). And be able to step on a real bike, with real cycling clothes, and after a few tries get the left foot in and be able to ride with friends. Never tried to push so hard and while being fully focused on moving my leg around it was a big step in my world 😀
Extra fun to do it on the 2018 Specialized S-Works Tarmac with new Shimano Dura-Ace Di2 🙂
So keep looking forward no matter where you are in life. Make life better, and if you got a perfect life there is always someone else who needs help.
Big mountains, small cyclists, awesome trails. Been riding mtb in Sweden, Norway and Germany but nothing has been as good as in Canada. On a rental bike with an ugly helmet.
A thing that really is on my bucket list of cycling is BC Bike Race. A stage race in British Columbia as in the best trails in the world. Watch this video from this years race and see for yourself:
I would prefer a bit less rain in the beginning but what a race. Have had it in mind for several years but never done anything to get there. Don’t think I will for 2018 either but for 2019 on a new Specialized Camber it may be the seasons biggest goal 😀
Today was Velothon Stockholm. A race both for elite and amateurs on closed home roads outside Stockholm with a finish and start on Södermalm. Have done it twice before and it’s really cool to ride on closed roads where it’s always cars other days and be able to ride on the left side, right side or in the middle without any thoughts of a car.
As I couldn’t ride this year and it felt really boring to just sit home and see Strava and Instagram get filled by nice rides by a lot of friend annoyed me a bit, didn’t want to miss such an event.
So as I’m in the best team this year, Skoda Cycling Team I sent a text and I got a place in their car going behind the Skoda group.
Or in front at the maststart:
One got dropped, one dropped with illness but the rest rode really strong. They caught a big racegroup that started ahead and passed it, got a huge group hanging on for 110km or something like that.
A great morning even without riding 🙂 And seemed great with different groups as there was very few crashes today compared to last year. Awesome organisation 😀
So what about progress?
After being at Velothon, coming home watching the first big CX race of the season, watching the women’s race in Madrid and seeing that the men’s last Vuelta stage would take a lot of time. I got up on my Colnago a.k.a. trainerbike and pedaled a bit too, almost faster than the pro’s at the Vuelta but for a short time. Started with trainer yesterday and even that my left leg is a bit stiff it feels awesome to get some pedalstrokes and feels like a step forward. A step closer to ride outside with great friends and get back to the life I want to have. But still a bit to go as you can see on my Strava: progresstraining
Sometimes you try to fit in the bunch, sometimes you try to be better to impress on someone. Sometime you just want to be cool and that others want you to seem cool.
I didn’t succeed on the picture above on my first cx training with my new Crux last autumn as I was the only one not riding for CKCX 😉
When putting higher expectations on yourself or trying to be someone you aren’t it will break at some time. And it takes extra energy that you could put on something fun or important instead.
Most of my life I have been wanting to be someone else, someone better, someone cooler, someone that attracts more women, someone that is a fast fit cyclist.
But I slowly learning to enjoy the best of me. I may not be so strong but I’m pretty light and love to attack a climb like Contador. I may not be the coolest but I have a dream of just having clothes I think I look good in, and getting pretty close according to myself. I may not be the most attractive guy but I only meet great women’s and I prefer quality over quantity.
I may not be the most extrovert guy but I can be happy anyway 😉
So be yourself, enjoy life as much as you can and get surrounded by friends who are your friends no matter if you got a good or bad day. Even the bad days can be good then: