Sometimes you try to fit in the bunch, sometimes you try to be better to impress on someone. Sometime you just want to be cool and that others want you to seem cool.
I didn’t succeed on the picture above on my first cx training with my new Crux last autumn as I was the only one not riding for CKCX 😉
When putting higher expectations on yourself or trying to be someone you aren’t it will break at some time. And it takes extra energy that you could put on something fun or important instead.
Most of my life I have been wanting to be someone else, someone better, someone cooler, someone that attracts more women, someone that is a fast fit cyclist.
But I slowly learning to enjoy the best of me. I may not be so strong but I’m pretty light and love to attack a climb like Contador. I may not be the coolest but I have a dream of just having clothes I think I look good in, and getting pretty close according to myself. I may not be the most attractive guy but I only meet great women’s and I prefer quality over quantity.
I may not be the most extrovert guy but I can be happy anyway 😉
So be yourself, enjoy life as much as you can and get surrounded by friends who are your friends no matter if you got a good or bad day. Even the bad days can be good then:
Another early morning. Yesterday to Älgö felt hard but I hang on. I think my body doesn’t like to rest too much. Today after a hard ride yesterday it was up to speed. Took it easy on the warm up and didn’t take any turn until after Nacka Forum. Became a hard one as Filip had attacked. Easy on Järnvägspizza and tried to hang on to Östervik. The climb that ruined my rides with stiff legs so many times before this year.
Today they worked, could advance and go up in front after the climb. The Lightweight Lizard was back.
In stationsbacken back from Fisksätra a few riders rode away and got a gap. I went up and did my best to chase back. Back at Storängen and after the hole group got stuck behind a slow bus to Sickla it was time to give gas again. Felt good but when I came to the top on Hellasbacken there was a new gap to 4-5 riders. A long one. I felt good and got the stupid thought of attack up to them, ended halfway with my legs standing straight out. Caught by the group again and we chased together until we got all back in Älta.
A new gap in Storkällan and I was up trying to chase again.
Got last in the sprint and it felt like the hardest training so far this year. I may not have been the fastest but I felt the ability to dig deep and ride hard. A feeling I’ve been missing for a while. The feeling when you finish and don’t know how to sit upright on your bike and when you think if you even will manage to eat some breakfast 😉
My bike performed perfectly today too even that it never gets enough love:
If I was satisfied with the morning ride I did another fun ride after work. Emil asked if I wanted to do a short mtbride. I was up if I could ride e-bike and it was okey. Maybe wrong style with clothes and helmet but the Turbo Levo FSR 6Fattie is a really fun toy:
People can thing whatever they want about e-bikes but the Turbo Levo makes the heaviest legs feel fine and it floats over every root and rock. 😀
Today I was motivated and wanted to hang on until the end, no dropping. Doped with my favorite Specialized S-Works Evade GC Skinsuit, Evade helmet and S-Works Sub6 shoes 😉
Alone of my look, not so matched like Penton Cycling:
But I survived up Östervik to Fisksätra and kept my leg in schack. Easy spinning and it was good to go for real. Could push 100% for the rest and got so happy I even got to cover some gaps and took quiet a few turns. 😀 I think I even was happier finishing with the group today than managed to hang on around Vättern with Skoda. This has been much so hard and thought a lot of my leg and why it doesn’t work perfect if I don’t warm up proper.
Had a day off work today and usually I’m riding far and enjoying life then. Wasn’t possible in the rain today and as my friend Emil would ride the time trial in the Stockholm road Cup I joined. Less mileage but great training and no need to be out in the rain too long 😉 A time trial with regular roadbikes without tt bars and disc wheels, called Folktempo in Swedish. On a great square course.
I haven’t been feeling so fast lately and it seems like I get passed by many so wasn’t so sure how I would perform today. Not so good getting warm in rain either. A Café du Cycliste merino baselayer underneath my Specialized S-Works Evade GC Skinsuit made the work and it felt perfect and fast all loop 😀 Also borrowed a pair of Roval CL64 disc wheels from work to get some aero advantage 😉 Thought they got a bit heavy when I rode them last year but for a time trial they was awesome 🙂
So everything went according to plan. I maybe could have ridden a bit faster in a couple of sections but wanted to finish too :p
Ended with a slide:
And managed to get 12th in Men B 🙂 Emil who I went there with also came 12th, but in the A class 🙂 A conversation about wattage all the way home 😉
You know this thing with recovery? I didn’t and tried you hang on to Le Peloton today. A lot of fast guys almost making all time records today but I didn’t. My left leg said stop on top of Österviksbacken and I didn’t manage to hold a wheel around Fisksätra. Dropped.
Took the shortcut at Kranglan and rode with Oskar to Älta where we got caught by the 1st group again. Tried to hang on and thought it felt good until Storkällan. Went alright on the climb but when it flattened out and the speed rised I couldn’t keep up. Just to fast which feels like a good reason to drop. Rode the rest alone as fast I could and ended in the sun outside Le Mond for breakfast and which fast happy people 🙂
Like Rille captured:
Biggest reason I tried to ride fast today was because of the bike I borrowed. Wanted to try it for real and sure it’s superfast. But I wasn’t.
Specialized Venge Vias Expert Disch with Roval CL64 wheels. The Rocket Red color even makes me like red 😉
Many degrees, many cyclists 😀 Record this year with around 60 cyclists.
so many but no ambassadors so I stepped up trying to say something about riding safe, following traffic rules and so on.
It started ok but was a bit further back than I planned to be when coming down to Järnvägspizza but went fine and in front a bit after the tight corner. Didn’t feel awesome up to Fisksätra but managed to hang on and got really happy to tackle the first obstacle. Far back at Stationsbacken then again and saw the first riders go away when half the peloton had to stop for a bus in the roundabout in Ektorp. Ended with a big chase and in Storängen at the red light all was together again. Got a bit too long way to go around in the front and got tired to Nacka Forum. Down to Sickla I got 2 (!) KOMs 😀
Up on Viktor’s wheel up Hellas and after I took a turn I was really tired. Dropped a bit and hoped for someone else to cover the gap. Worked a bit until a car tried to passed and got into the middle of the group. My legs died and I saw the peloton float away…
Got company by Oscar and 4 others. Rode the last part together and it went pretty good. At Skarpnäck I stopped for the redlight like you should but the others just passed 😦 Had to ride the long last straight alone behind and wasn’t as happy as I hoped I would be. Complained a bit and then we rode to Le Mond to be happy again. Eating breakfast in the sun is the best 😀
All just smiles, and coffee. And bragging Stockholm style about KOM’s, big turns and wattage, or just happy to meet a proper pro cyclist :). Everyone dreaming of sitting there in the sun all day. Happy life